(This won’t be a clear talk, just releasing the wonders of my head, heart and hurt)
There are so many things I never thought I could do, so many that have always seemed a big mountain to climb. The best I could do is avoid such, or when pushed so hard to the wall compromise on so much just to see myself out. It has never been so easy, so simple and so peaceful as it has been a few weeks ago.
Maybe I need to say this; I have never bothered myself with valentines day and in future I will reconsider this as the better option. Needless to say much, my 2013 valentines was unique in it’s own ways. Enough said.
Life could have never been any better than it has been the last few days. I know not so many of you can attest to this; especially my dear ones that have gone silent on. Worry not, life has to move on; whether I be there or not. I will always say I am busy with the IEBC (now that I am so much into the system, but be ye warned against nicknaming me “commissioner”) just to save myself the energies. Yes i get in so early and get out so late, but if I must communicate, then I will. Worry not how I got myself here yet I ought to be in some meeting somewhere or up and down setting up the tallying centre, I so badly needed this.
Okay, I hope you are still on board. When I say I can do it, I am referring to one thing attached to one person. There are these people you always want to ignore, forget about and go silent on. Unfortunately, these are the people you will always find yourself with and talking to. Sometimes it feels bad, at times it makes me feel so bad of myself but at times its the only thing that delivers the peace of mind I need so dearly.
I am writing this because I have been able to go silent on such a person. Judge me not for my words, it’s the only thing I could do and feel good. I am the ever smiling Lilian, but you never know what lies behind that smile. I am not writing this to you, but if it so happens that you read it then be it. You will never hear me say this, but you can always see me write about it. It gives me the courage to keep doing it, it saves me the much pressure and it relieves me of so many burdens.
Enough said. Lovely day.