Are you there? Fine, I chose on this topic because I know at least a good number of us have taken that step before, maybe not once. I have always found myself falling victim of this decision and constantly it’s not only the right, but also the only decision that I have to make. Moving on is not all about a girl whose heart has been broken somewhere by some egotistic man, it’s a phrase common to this young generation, more especially these campus sweethearts. This clearly reminds me of some funny terms and phrases I have heard around, some so pleasing and others quite irritating to the ears. Just to mention but a few; crap, fuck, shit, “wharever”, suit yourself and many more. I know this was not my original message, but I have to deviate a little, it’s so pressing. Talking to the campus men and women……when you choose your words, and especially when talking to MEN and WOMEN, please take a moment and refine them before letting your mouth spill out some sort of nonsense. Forgive me if I am so harsh, but it’s disappointing when a full grown man or woman dares scream these dirty words all over these long corridors. Some behaviors are not worth having, but if you fall under the campus boys and girls’ category, then you are excused.
Anyway, I was speaking of the moving on phrase. I have heard this phrase a number of times in the recent past from a dear girlfriend. She seems to have fallen in love with it that in a couple of sentences she never misses on it. I too find myself using it at times, but maybe I don’t like it as much. Am writing this because I accord this phrase some respect. Rarely do I use it, but when I do it leaves a big mark behind that takes ages to erase. I have used it before, both rightfully and sometimes for the wrong reasons, all in all it served me well.
Tonight I am moving on. I choose to move on to the next level, I choose to move on to the other end of the burrow, I choose to move on to another episode, I am moving on to a place I have on no account been to. Yes, I am moving on. There are so many uncertainties with moving on and more than ever now that my destiny is not yet so comprehensible to me. I feel some sense of dread from inside, I am constantly tempted to look rear, but I have made up my mind, I cannot return back, I am moving on…
I am moving on from the terrain of slavery, I cannot allow Pharaoh to keep holding me in captivity, before me is a big river, behind me is the great army, but I am sure moving on. My feet have grown so drained and weary, I am moving but I seem not to, I have lost optimism and strength, I feel there is nowhere to step, but I am sure moving on…
This was such a easier said than done resolution that I had to make, I wish I could have had plan B for the same. Life is full of ups and downs, life is not always about smiles, and sometimes it calls for us to stiffen our belts. Feeling so full-grown and proficient, these are the class of decisions I will be duty-bound to make for the rest of my life. It was not painless friends, to take this audacious decision, it has cost me masses of my tears, it has taken away my energy, I feel so weak from inside, but I just had to make it. Yes, I had to make the decision to stop playing this music and move on with this Java based scientific calculator project. Hehehehehehehehe……doing the things I had never done before………lovely night dears.