Happiness!!! Happiness!!!! Happiness!!! is all I want. I wish not to speak for you my dear one, but I choose to acknowledge that you too are yearning for this. I have never known happiness, as I could say. I have known pain, I have known sorrow, I have been hurt and I have cried. If I could recall of an instance when I last had a genuine smile on my face, then I could go years back. The days I hadn’t known what life is all about, when the principle of ask and it shall be given worked pretty well for me. I never knew pain, I never knew struggle, I never knew sorrow. Sadly my happiness was based on an individual, I hadn’t known how well I could scatter my eggs, I lay them all in one basket, and the day they broke i lost all. I had never pictured such an occurrence one day, I lived in ignorance and naivety (as I could say), but still I can’t take the blame, it all goes back to my age. Am a strong believer of maturity beyond the age limit, but I equally admit I had no control over this. I fell in love, in pursuit of happiness, I lost friendships with unbelievable people, in pursuit of happiness. I knew of one person that could make me happy, I thought I could walk with my first love the rest of my life, he promised love which he did deliver, he promised life full of smiles and remained faithful to that, he never hurt me, never at any point, for the twelve years i walked with him, he remained faithful. But i sure did lose him, then my life became unbearable. I lost him to the monsters of this world, I count it a betrayal to me, that the circumstances under which i lost him still remain unclear to me. It was the people he trusted most, even with me that separated us, its the people i thought were positive with our relation that snatched him from me, yes i cried, not for a day but forever, i promised myself to never fall in love again, in pursuit of happiness, i settled into a lifetime mourning, if that could make him happy in his absence. I ran for happiness, I cried for happiness, my life was full of misery, I had to change my character, I lost my original self to another self, a self that i had to adopt in search for happiness, a self that I sure knew was not mine, but I had to stick to that, in pursuit of happiness. I say this with so much pain, I say this with so much sorrow, have run and sought for happiness, I know none can replace my love, I need not be made happy by others, I need not force anyone to make me happy, I need not cry for him since he is long gone but all this I do, IN PURSUIT OF HAPPINESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!